Monday, June 16, 2008

Dum Dum da Dum...

Two of my really great friends, David and Katie, just got engaged! It's been a little over a week and seriously I couldn't be more excited for them :-) It's interesting though, because I have been asked twice... "So Leslie, like... David and Katie just got engaged and.. does that like, ya know, sting a little bit? Make ya a little jealous?"

My answer: Not at all! Are you kidding me?

I have always had this deep trust that God has a perfect timing and I tell you what, I believe that more than ever these days. I've always known that marriage and all that fun stuff would happen for me when it's supposed to, and because of that I've never really felt jealous of anyone as their time came to pass. I'm not perfect and yes I have longed for that time, of course, but I am thinking really hard right now and I can't say that I've ever really been "jealous". Maybe a long time ago, but in the last 2 years... no...not that I can think of right now anyway. Really, I don't think so. I'd say that if anything, I am even more excited for it to happen to me now :-)

I have always wanted to be a person who shares in other people's excitement. That is a personal goal of mine. and I want that to come out of a genuine heart and a genuine love for that person and a genuine excitement. I just want to be that way. I think it's a beautiful way to live and love others.

and I have soooo so much in my life. Shame on me if I should ever want more than what God has so generously blessed me with.

Anyway, congratulations David and Katie!

Sunday, June 8, 2008

Compromise

I sleep with a fan. I have alway slept with a fan. I prefer the hum of something over silence every single night. Unfortunately... Josh does not feel the same. He prefers silence. In fact, it is actually difficult for him to sleep when there is constant noise like that.

So, without saying anything to him, I decided to start trying to sleep without any noise, because I can endure silence- I just don't prefer it. Since we're planning on sleeping in the same room in the next 6 months or so (get married haha) I knew that one of us will have to compromise on our personal preferences. And after a few nights of successfully sleeping without a noise I decided to tell him about my endeavor and about how I knew that one of us would need to change so I was going to start working on it... but that was when HE informed ME that for the past few nights he has been trying to sleep WITH a fan. I'm pretty sure it was more difficult for him than it was for me because I'm not sure that he made it an entire night with a fan yet... but to me... the fact that we were both willing to change... without so much as a discussion about it... means that we are going to have a great marriage.

I'm learning to put him and his needs before me and mine, and he's learning to put me and my needs before his, and we are learning to put God before each other.

Isn't that how it's supposed to be?







aaaand I am really starting to loath facebook and the cheap crappy communication and relationships that it offers. When Josh and I get engaged I don't think I'm going to post it on facebook for like a week, at least. Because seriously, I don't want anyone that I care about finding out in that ridiculously lame and impersonal fashion. Facebook makes "friendships" lazy and easy and unreal. and I am really starting to resent that.