Friendship (is difficult)

....Atleast, for me it is. For some reason I can't quite figure out why I don't have a core group of "girls" that are mine. That know me and I know them. I feel like some of the friends in my life that I have known the shortest amount of time know my heart better than the friends I have known for years and years.

This is pretty much the same song I have been singing for a while now. I don't know what to do about it, really. All I know is that I am not the perfect friend. Sometimes I forget to call, sometimes I forget important things (like college graduation parties...), sometimes I don't let people in. Sometimes I'm selfish. This poem I wrote sums it up.

"Will You Be Friends With Me?"

Hi my name is Leslie

How are you?

I know we haven’t met,

But I think I’d like to

This might be kind of scary

But I’ll take a chance and see

Cause I need someone in my life

Will you be friends with me?

You should know something, though

I don’t have it all together

But will you let me in?

Maybe we’ll be friends forever

I will make time for you

I’ll ask you tough questions

I’ll call you just to say ‘hi’

I’ll seek you out for lessons

I’ll cry with you when you’re sad

I’ll take joy in your successes

I’ll call you on your birthday

I’ll help you clean your messes

I’ll listen to your heart

I’ll love you the best I can

I’ll pray for you & whatever you need

I will truly be your friend

Even if I get a new job

New boyfriend or new car

I promise to still be there for you

My affections won’t go far.

If I let you in, though

Can you make me a promise?

You don’t have to say yes,

but please just be honest.

Will you do the same for me?

Will you seek my heart?

Will you get to know the real me?

It might be kind of hard...

If you think that sounds good

Then what more do we need?

My name is Leslie & I’m not perfect

But will you be friends with me?

"Change"

I like change, and I'm experiencing quite a bit of it lately.

New roommate- Brian.
New job- massage therapist
New time for myself- I work only 13 hours a week (crazy)
(Potential) New house? Josh has put an offer in on a house that more than likely he and I will inhabit together before the end of the year if everything works out and..

yeah. I think that's plenty.

I like it though. I feel Gods presence all over everything. I trust Him. It feels a little crazy at times, especially the new house stuff, but I have peace about all of it. God is really quite good at orchestrating everything perfectly. It's just our job to listen to the music I suppose.