“Anyone can give up, it's the easiest thing in the world to do. But to hold it together when everyone else would understand if you fell apart, that's true strength.”

Pennsylvania

Well, today was my first day back from my mini vacation to the hills of Pennsylvania with Josh. It was a much needed retreat to simplicity and couldn't have come at a better time. We had a great time four wheeling, eating, playing games... and... well.... not too much else. haha we rested a lot, ok more than a lot, and it was perfect. Except for the ticket Josh got on the way home, that wasn't so perfect... but the rest of it was!



I see in myself that when I don't spend time praying or in Gods Word, his values, truths, and desires for me mean less and less to my heart. I become more lenient in my thoughts, words, actions, and I don't like it. I can see how "falling back" is easy for some, I can see how it just sort of happens for others. But I refuse to let it happen to me. Really, I do. My life is as blessed as it is only, and I repeat ONLY because of what God has done in it, who he has brought into it, what He has taught me and the dreams He has placed inside of me. I have nothing to do with it. All I am is because of Him.



I need to make some lifestyle changes. Where is my time spent? How am I spending it? and what's it for? What really matters? and am I really living the Way I'm supposed to?

Ouch..

Hurt is inevitable.

So is change.

No one is exempt from these two feelings, ever. All we can do is learn to deal with them appropriately and maturely. Forgive..even if no apology is offered... forgive. See the other persons perspective, bring it to God if you must, and move on.

In general I feel discouraged lately. I feel like I am constantly encountering hurt. Hurt people, hurt feelings, hurt relationships, hurt pasts, hurt presents... hurt. I feel like there is nothing that can get rid of it, it's everywhere, like some nasty disease eating people from the inside and leaving nothing but an empty desire for something more. But I have to remember and I have to constantly remind myself that I have something more. I have a Living Hope inside of me. I have The Living Hope inside of me. I have the answer. I have the cure.

and I need to remember that. That's all that matters. That's really all that matters.