This aint right!

I love people but today I can hardly stand anyone

And that ain't right.... that ain't right at all...

and what I really want to do more than anything is bring hot chocolate to homeless people tonight. Is that possible? I might try. but probably not. because usually I only come up with great ideas and hardly ever put them into actual practice. humbling. ouch.

Please excuse me while I go get my heart rescued by my Rescuer.

"Lord, give me grace, give me forgiveness, give me love, give me patience, give me You. Take away selfishness, take away pride, take away me, take away the ugly inside...Make me less and less and less and you more and more and more."

My tummy aches...

Sometimes when I leave Josh's house... or he leaves mine... my stomach hurts. It's more of an ache. and it goes away in a few minutes, but still, is that weird? I think it might be. Overall I'm enjoying the steady descent into winter, but I must say, that leaving his arms after spending an evening with him and driving home has to be almost as harsh as the day I was born. All safe and comfortable inside my moms womb (with Brian right there of course) and then bam! the cold harsh world smacks me in the face! (or was it the toosh?) anyway, it's hard to leave, but leave we must.

oh and my sister might get a job in Chicago. and as excited for her as I am, it actually makes me quite sad when I really think about it. We don't hang out a lot here, but I like having her around. Oh well, life must go on eh?