I just ran across the street to the bank... and as I made my way back... two young boys that had to be somewhere between the ages of 8 and 11 hollered (or hooted) at me and said....
"Hey Hey! You're lookin good from over here!"
To which I yelled back... "You guys are like 8 years old, don't say stuff like that!!"
Who will teach these boys to be men? TV wont. The media wont. Their dads probably wont. Who will do it??
That question plagues my heart in a surprisingly big way...
Thursday, March 20, 2008
Sunday, March 9, 2008
Love me, love me.. say that you love me...
I have an extremely romantic boyfriend. and I absolutely love it. I would love him if he didn't do the little things he does but I love that he does. and he loves that I love it. It's a beautiful circle :-) However, I can not stand people and their annoying comments such as the following:
"Ohhh yeah, I remember when my husband used to do stuff like that! Enjoy it now, it won't last forever"
"Those were the days.."
"::sigh:: To be young and in love again.."
"oh you're so lucky to still be in the 'infatuation' stage"
I feel certain that this is not just a phase, that this is not just attempts to win my heart that will end as soon as I walk down the aisle. I feel like my certainty is viewed as ignorance or some kind of naivety. I feel like I shouldn't doubt Joshua because everyone else's man stopped pursuing their hearts. I feel like people should keep their mouth shut and not rain on my parade because theirs ended a long time ago. I refuse to accept their mediocrity and lower my expectations for what everyone else is living. I don't want to be like everyone else and I never have.
Wow. I didn't realize how much that bothered me until about 2 seconds ago.
"Ohhh yeah, I remember when my husband used to do stuff like that! Enjoy it now, it won't last forever"
"Those were the days.."
"::sigh:: To be young and in love again.."
"oh you're so lucky to still be in the 'infatuation' stage"
I feel certain that this is not just a phase, that this is not just attempts to win my heart that will end as soon as I walk down the aisle. I feel like my certainty is viewed as ignorance or some kind of naivety. I feel like I shouldn't doubt Joshua because everyone else's man stopped pursuing their hearts. I feel like people should keep their mouth shut and not rain on my parade because theirs ended a long time ago. I refuse to accept their mediocrity and lower my expectations for what everyone else is living. I don't want to be like everyone else and I never have.
Wow. I didn't realize how much that bothered me until about 2 seconds ago.
Friday, February 29, 2008
Prayer
I want to be the kind of person who sees a pig limping and prays for it.
Because I see broken people all the time. and I want to instinctively pray for the broken people I see- and I want that kind of instinctive prayer to be so natural, that when I see broken animals I can't help but lift them up to the Creator and Healer without even thinking about it.
Because I see broken people all the time. and I want to instinctively pray for the broken people I see- and I want that kind of instinctive prayer to be so natural, that when I see broken animals I can't help but lift them up to the Creator and Healer without even thinking about it.
Tuesday, February 26, 2008
A (rare) poem
It's a very rare occurance that I sit down and write a poem. It is usually when my heart is screaming something in such a way that I can rhyme about it. Anyway, I wrote this poem a month or so ago in about 10 minutes, which should tell you how real it was to my heart that night (and still is today) It mixes the simplicity of friendship when you're a child with the complexity of it as an adult. All a child has to ask is "Will you be friends with me?" and that's the end of it. As I get older friendships become more complicated and difficult to maintain... Sometimes I long for the simplicity of what it used to be.... enjoy!
"Will You Be Friends With Me?"
My name is Leslie
How are you?
I know we haven’t met,
But I think I’d like to
this might be kind of scary
But I’ll take a chance and see
Cause I need someone in my life
Will you be friends with me?
You should know something, though
I don’t have it all together
But will you let me in?
Maybe we’ll be friends forever
I will make time for you
I’ll ask you tough questions
I’ll call you just to say ‘hi’
I’ll seek you out for lessons
I’ll cry with you when you’re sad
I’ll take joy in your successes
I’ll call you on your birthday
I’ll help you clean your messes
I’ll listen to your heart
I’ll love you the best I can
I’ll pray for you & whatever you need
I will truly be your friend
Even if I get a new job
New boyfriend or new car
I promise to still be there for you
My affections won’t go far.
If I let you in, though
Can you make me a promise?
You don’t have to say yes,
but please just be honest.
Will you do the same for me?
Will you seek my heart?
Will you get to know the real me?
It might be kind of hard...
If you think that sounds good
Then what more do we need?
My name is Leslie & I’m not perfect
But will you be friends with me?
"Will You Be Friends With Me?"
My name is Leslie
How are you?
I know we haven’t met,
But I think I’d like to
this might be kind of scary
But I’ll take a chance and see
Cause I need someone in my life
Will you be friends with me?
You should know something, though
I don’t have it all together
But will you let me in?
Maybe we’ll be friends forever
I will make time for you
I’ll ask you tough questions
I’ll call you just to say ‘hi’
I’ll seek you out for lessons
I’ll cry with you when you’re sad
I’ll take joy in your successes
I’ll call you on your birthday
I’ll help you clean your messes
I’ll listen to your heart
I’ll love you the best I can
I’ll pray for you & whatever you need
I will truly be your friend
Even if I get a new job
New boyfriend or new car
I promise to still be there for you
My affections won’t go far.
If I let you in, though
Can you make me a promise?
You don’t have to say yes,
but please just be honest.
Will you do the same for me?
Will you seek my heart?
Will you get to know the real me?
It might be kind of hard...
If you think that sounds good
Then what more do we need?
My name is Leslie & I’m not perfect
But will you be friends with me?
Tuesday, January 15, 2008
John 3:17
It's kind of like this verse is for the nonbelievers to know....
16"For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life. John 3:16.
and then this one right after it is for those who already believe to remember...
For God did not send his Son into the world to condemn the world, but to save the world through him. -John 3:17
Just a thought.
16"For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life. John 3:16.
and then this one right after it is for those who already believe to remember...
For God did not send his Son into the world to condemn the world, but to save the world through him. -John 3:17
Just a thought.
Wednesday, January 9, 2008
January
Well... I must say, that on this ninth day of January, it's already been a fabulous month.
I ended 2007 in New York City with my mom, Lindsay, Damien, Brian, Kyra, and Joshua. It was an amazing 3 days of relaxing and walking around the city. Our adventures included Ground Zero, Central Park, China Town, Wall Street, the Staton Island Ferry, and most importantly Time Square (or 10 blocks back... but seriously who's counting?) haha!
It was funny because while I was there I almost never had my phone. Anyone that I wanted to talk to was with me, and I was enjoying it very much. It was a good time for Josh and I because it had been 6 days since we'd seen each other... and we really hadn't gotten to talk much at all either. He is such a man. Can I say that? He is such a good, strong, honorabl man, too. He is a natural leader and I love letting him lead :-)
Less than a week later I turned the big 22. Or should I say the not so big 22? It doesn't seem like a very important age at all, if anything it only allows less judgement when I tell people how old I am. When a person says 21 most peoples reaction is "OHHHHH YEAH! How are you liking THAT?" I think 22 is going to be a great year. It started off well enough with probably the best birthday I've had yet. Julie, Amanda, and Emily took me out for dinner and to McFadden's to celebrate, family dinner Saturday night, going away party for Josh and Jared (that has nothing to do with my birthday though...) and then Sunday Josh, Jenn, and Colin through my brother and I a birthday party. No one has ever done that and it meant sooo so much to me :-)
I know this is just another memory blog but, it's my blog, and I want to use it to remember things. My heart's in here somewhere too, between the lines, if you look hard enough.
oh and also, I am completely in love :-) Just thought I'd throw that in as well!
I ended 2007 in New York City with my mom, Lindsay, Damien, Brian, Kyra, and Joshua. It was an amazing 3 days of relaxing and walking around the city. Our adventures included Ground Zero, Central Park, China Town, Wall Street, the Staton Island Ferry, and most importantly Time Square (or 10 blocks back... but seriously who's counting?) haha!
It was funny because while I was there I almost never had my phone. Anyone that I wanted to talk to was with me, and I was enjoying it very much. It was a good time for Josh and I because it had been 6 days since we'd seen each other... and we really hadn't gotten to talk much at all either. He is such a man. Can I say that? He is such a good, strong, honorabl man, too. He is a natural leader and I love letting him lead :-)
Less than a week later I turned the big 22. Or should I say the not so big 22? It doesn't seem like a very important age at all, if anything it only allows less judgement when I tell people how old I am. When a person says 21 most peoples reaction is "OHHHHH YEAH! How are you liking THAT?" I think 22 is going to be a great year. It started off well enough with probably the best birthday I've had yet. Julie, Amanda, and Emily took me out for dinner and to McFadden's to celebrate, family dinner Saturday night, going away party for Josh and Jared (that has nothing to do with my birthday though...) and then Sunday Josh, Jenn, and Colin through my brother and I a birthday party. No one has ever done that and it meant sooo so much to me :-)
I know this is just another memory blog but, it's my blog, and I want to use it to remember things. My heart's in here somewhere too, between the lines, if you look hard enough.
oh and also, I am completely in love :-) Just thought I'd throw that in as well!
Monday, December 24, 2007
This aint right!
I love people but today I can hardly stand anyone
And that ain't right.... that ain't right at all...
and what I really want to do more than anything is bring hot chocolate to homeless people tonight. Is that possible? I might try. but probably not. because usually I only come up with great ideas and hardly ever put them into actual practice. humbling. ouch.
Please excuse me while I go get my heart rescued by my Rescuer.
"Lord, give me grace, give me forgiveness, give me love, give me patience, give me You. Take away selfishness, take away pride, take away me, take away the ugly inside...Make me less and less and less and you more and more and more."
And that ain't right.... that ain't right at all...
and what I really want to do more than anything is bring hot chocolate to homeless people tonight. Is that possible? I might try. but probably not. because usually I only come up with great ideas and hardly ever put them into actual practice. humbling. ouch.
Please excuse me while I go get my heart rescued by my Rescuer.
"Lord, give me grace, give me forgiveness, give me love, give me patience, give me You. Take away selfishness, take away pride, take away me, take away the ugly inside...Make me less and less and less and you more and more and more."
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